O Lord to the uttermost…

May I read the meltings of thy heart to me
in the manger of thy birth
in the garden of thy agony,
in the cross of thy suffering,
in the tomb of thy resurrection,
in the heaven of thy intercession.

Bold in this thought I defy my adversary,
tread down his temptations,
resist his schemings,
renouce the world,
am valient for truth.

Deepen in me a sense of my holy relationship to thee,
as spiritual Bridegroom,
as Jehovah’s Fellow,
as sinners’ Friend.

I think of thy glory and my vileness,
thy majesty and my meanness,
thy beauty and my deformity,
thy purity and my filth,
thy righteousness and my iniquity.

Thou hast loved me everlastingly, unchangeably,
may I love thee as I am loved;
Thou hast given thyself for me,
may I give myself to thee;
Thou has died for me,
May I live for thee,
in every moment of my time,
in every movement of my mind,
in every pulse of my heart.

May I never dally with the world and its allurements,
but walk by thy side,
listen to thy voice,
be clothed with thy graces,
and adorned with thy righteousness.

Mm, thank you Lord for getting me up too early for clinical. It totally gave me more than enough time to really indulge in His word this morning. It’s much needed for sure. Pray for me! It’s going to be a busy day at the hospital :)

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom;
all those who practice it have a good understanding.
His praise endures forever!

—Psalm 111:10

“My Father…

My sin is not so much this or that particular evil,
but my continual separation, disunion, distance from thee,
and having a loose spirit towards thee.

But thou hast given me a present, Jesus thy Son,
as Mediator between thyself and my soul,
as middle-man who in a pit holds both him below and him above
for only he can span the chasm breached by sin,
and satisfy divine justice.

May I always lay hold upon this Mediator,
as a realized object of faith,
and alone worthy by his love to bridge the gulf.

…O thou who has the hearts of all men in thine hand,
form my heart according to the Word,
according to the image of thy Son,
So shall Christ the Word, and his Word,
be my strength and comfort.” 

(Mannheim, Germany via allthingseurope)

Happy October! :)
(Whoops, a day late.)
Fact: Autumn’s my favorite season! But, I really dislike the color orange. I don’t know how I get past that when it comes to autumn. Maybe it’s the weather totally wins me over. Plus it gives us beautiful nature trails. (Seriously, though. Isn’t that photo gorgeous?) Man, what a wonderful Maker.

So, dipping into the OT today:

Take care lest you forget the LORD your God by not keeping his commandments and his rules and his statutes, which I command you today, lest,when you have eaten and are full and have build good houses and live in them, and when your herds and flocks multiply and your silver and gold is multiplied and all that you have is multiplied, then your heart by lifted up, and you forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery, who led you through the great and terrifying wilderness, with its fiery serpents and scorpions and thirsty ground where there was no water, who brought you water out of the flinty rock, who fed you in the wilderness with manna that your fathers did not know, that he might humble you and test you, to do you good in the end.

Beware lest you say in your heart, ‘My power and the might of my hand have gotten me this wealth.’ You shall remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you power to get wealth, that he may confirm his covenant that he swore to your fathers, as it is this day.” Deuteronomy 8:11-18

In this section, Moses speaking to (or rather, warning) the Israelites to not forget the LORD. To kill their pride because all the earthly possessions that they receive in multitudes would not have come to pass without God’s providence. Originally, I was going to just put Deut. 8:17-18, but also typed up the part before because it really paints a good picture of how great God’s grace is to his people. Seriously, undeserved. You should read the journey they went through.

Note to self: don’t forget God. Praying that I don’t forget to acknowledge that everything is a result of His grace. Humble yourself, girl. As if you got this far on your own.

Soli Deo gloria.

Today’s study place: It’s A Grind, Cerritos.
Drink: Pumpkin pecan latte.
Study music: LOTR soundtrack (YES.)
Devotion:

By faith Moses, when he was grown up, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, choosing rather to be mistreated with the people of God than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin. He considered the reproach of Christ greater wealth than the treasures of Egypt, for he was looking to the reward. Hebrews 11:24-26

“Sometimes, we are called to make a faith choice that contradicts our reason. God’s way appears scary; it seems as if there will be nothing but loss for us if we choose it. But if it’s God’s way, it’s the best way, so we have nothing to fear. In fact, the only thing to fear is choosing the alternative.”

 PS: Hello, scarf weather. I love autumn.

Study break!
Changed it up & studying at home tonight.

Pros:

• I can dress comfortably. (Notice I’m totally wearing my pantulog.)
• Free coffee. (In my new favorite mug! Dinosaurs! AH.)
• Free food.
• I can sit on the floor! (Super comfy.)

Cons:

• I suck at making my own coffee.
• Hello, beds&couches that are awfully tempting to lie on. 

Anyway, something to reflect on:

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:12-17 (ESV) 

“While Jesus is representing me in heaven, may I reflect him on earth.
While he pleads my cause, may I show forth praise.”

“While Jesus is representing me in heaven,
may I reflect him on earth,
while he pleads my cause,
may I show forth praise

Continue the gentleness of thy goodness towards me,
and whether I wake or sleep, let they presence go with me,
thy blessing attend me
Thou hast led me on and I have found thy promises true,
I have been sorrowful, but thou hast been my help,
fearful, but thou hast delivered me,
despairing, but thou hast lifted me up.
Thy vows are ever upon me,
And I praise thee, O God.”

Segment of “God the All”

I can of myself do nothing to glorify thy blessed name, but I can through grace cheerfully surrender soul and body to thee,

I know that thou art the author and finisher of faith, that the whole work of redemption is thine alone, that every good work or thought found in me is the effect of thy power and grace, that thy sole motive in working in me to will and to do is for thy good pleasure.

O God, it is amazing that men can talk so much about man’s creaturely power and goodness, when, if thou didst not hold us back every moment, we should be devils incarnate.

This, by bitter experience, thou hast taught me concerning myself.

&then the chill crawls up my back.

Thank you, Lord.